Ariana: I can't eat!
Mitch: Yes you can!
Ariana: I can't eat while you make me laugh all the time!
Mitch: Oh.. I'm sorry, I won't look... *STARES*
17th of January,2010
I start to question wether I am right to be fractious about this condition we’re in or if it’s all just not worth it. If I could just see you now, everything would be perfect. We could work this out and put aside the awful unwanted distractions people throw at us. The silence I sit in is deafening, I can’t stand being here without you. I need you here; don’t let me go for something as stupid as this. As I sit on my little table and gaze out the window, I look at the dancing stars and wonder how they could be so peaceful. How they just sit there, all appealing for people to stare at them. When nothing makes sense to me and when my anger attains its peak, I go to stare, just so I can get away from it all, into my own little world where I dream that all is well and everything is perfect. Nothing can go wrong in my world and if I died right now, I know you’d never be the same.
I swear that you don’t have to go, and I’ll have you know I’m scared to death.
16th of January,2010 11:46pm
I have just finished watching the season finale of Girls of the Playboy Mansion. Jesus Christ, I love it! Sometimes I just wonder how they got it so well, and why can’t everyone else’s lives be as easy as they have it. The show actually calmed me down from dealing with the pathetic little gay problems that stupid TB caused. Oh how I love Kendra Wilkinson and the twins. And to make things even better, I found a playsuit just like the twins! Oh dear, to think I am blogging about girls living as playboy bunnies. I need more actual hobbies rather than watching “sluts” as my mother says. But I don’t believe those girls are sluts, they don’t go around fucking around with other peoples boyfriends or husbands so :)
Oh snap, she got owned. I don’t think she noticed her penis until she got told. I'm oh so very sorry dear, but you got wrecked bitch (:
Oh snap, she got owned. I don’t think she noticed her penis until she got told. I'm oh so very sorry dear, but you got wrecked bitch (:
16th of January,2010 9:52pm
Fucking whorey slutty skanky piece of fake fucking pudding dickmotherfucker bitchtit cunt fucker slut shit piss fuck cocksucker tardy grotty stupid piece of a fucking brown dump dickhead bastard fucker bitchaced skank. FUCK YOU WHORE!
Now that I have my full anger out, I hate you if it wasn't already noticeable. If there was a word greater than hate, I’d use it. Oh wait, let me fine various definitions of hate so you can get it through your thick skinned fucking head. You put yourself around everwhere that it makes me sick seeing your face. Just thought I’d put it out there.
DIFFERENT VARIATIONS OF HATE:
Hate
Abhorrence
Detestation
Hatred
Odium
Revulsion
Disgust
Extremely dislike
Detest
Loathe
Dislike
Oh how I wish there was more. If you haven’t noticed, PEOPLE HATE YOU FOR WHAT YOU DO.
That's all folks! :)
Now that I have my full anger out, I hate you if it wasn't already noticeable. If there was a word greater than hate, I’d use it. Oh wait, let me fine various definitions of hate so you can get it through your thick skinned fucking head. You put yourself around everwhere that it makes me sick seeing your face. Just thought I’d put it out there.
DIFFERENT VARIATIONS OF HATE:
Hate
Abhorrence
Detestation
Hatred
Odium
Revulsion
Disgust
Extremely dislike
Detest
Loathe
Dislike
Oh how I wish there was more. If you haven’t noticed, PEOPLE HATE YOU FOR WHAT YOU DO.
That's all folks! :)
The weekover... Part oneee;
"I DON'T REMEMBER IT!" 
"I CAN'T SEE, FLO!" 7th of January,2010 7:31pm
With out these two girls and my mother by my side, it feels as if no one is there. Every man I have learnt to trust has walked away, and every "best friend" i've had has disappeared. I'm not kidding. I'm not over exaggerating. It's true. I may have "friends" but I am not close with them all. I am not allowed out so much as the rest. I am not as pretty or beautiful as the rest. I just do not fit in with the crowd I was put in to. Everything has twisted, the secureness of my own home has gone. Fuck this.
3:30pm
Tonight I am camping out in Vanessahs backyard forrest.
With Vanessah and Bonita.
In a tent. With the dog.
I hope nothing goes wrong :
With Vanessah and Bonita.
In a tent. With the dog.
I hope nothing goes wrong :
3:05am
Well, here's to the... not so sad sad ending of our invisible relationship. You didn't bother, so shut our fucking mouth when you call me childish. I'm sorry I'm not as old as you are, but believe me kid, my brain is more mature than what you are, or what you could handle. I may be young, but that does not necessarily mean stupid. Kudos to you, your great 61 word break up text and the pussyness to not pick up my 23 calls. Sleep well tonight dick.
2:50am
"I see the southern cross!"
"Where?!"
*Puts head where Bonitas head is*
"There, there, there and there!"
"Bonnie, that's only four stars, the southern cross has five."
"Ohh, wrong one!"
*cough*
"Where?!"
*Puts head where Bonitas head is*
"There, there, there and there!"
"Bonnie, that's only four stars, the southern cross has five."
"Ohh, wrong one!"
*cough*
1:19am
Trampoline, Vodka, Boost Juice, Crunchy Peanut Butter, Rich Chocolate Chip Ice-Cream, Anaujiram, Grey Air, Sekoms.
Bonita Carzino and Vanessah Baldassarro.
Van, Full Moon, Black Sky, Forrest, Rabbits.
Nathan Grey and his Party hats and Party Poppers.
What more could you want on a night like this?
"You have ice-cream stuck in your teeth... You look like a Hobo!"
Oh Dear Lord :
Bonita Carzino and Vanessah Baldassarro.
Van, Full Moon, Black Sky, Forrest, Rabbits.
Nathan Grey and his Party hats and Party Poppers.
What more could you want on a night like this?
"You have ice-cream stuck in your teeth... You look like a Hobo!"
Oh Dear Lord :
2nd of Decembr,2009
Well there goes my "Worst attention span" again. Already I am bored of it,
Ohaii Der awesome funny pictures ^-^
Ohaii Der awesome funny pictures ^-^
1st of January,2010 4:29pm
Ok, so it's 2010. Happy New Year to all of you who feel it and if you're like me who feels like their head is on fire, goodjob. You have your first hangover of the year. I have failed at my attempt to have you stay in my life. I just don't know what to do. I have no idea what i'm thinking or why i'm thinking it. All I know is that it's not good. I don't see how I was over it so quickly, everything just adds up. As much as I strongly feel for you, i'm not used to the fact i'm not my own person. I don't feel myself. This isn't me. Whenever I become like this, I lose myself. Apart from this depressing piece of shit, hey, twas a happy, interesting new year. Oodles to you my dear(:
Oh looky, tis what would have happened ^-^
Oh looky, tis what would have happened ^-^
5:13am
Worried, very worried and it's only been three days, five hours and 13 minutes. Fuck My Life
-_____________-
-_____________-
31st of December,2009 9:05pm
Well tonight is officially the last couple of hours of this year. Another New Years Eve spent at home to think, but only until I can't be bothered to think. Until I reach for the glass, to try and forget about this year. To try and forget about the past 360 days i've spent thinking about you. Five days ago I realised I did not want to do it. I may not want to forget you, but I need to forget about the painful memories we shared. You may have given me some great memories this year, but you have also given me my worst. Ones which I do not wish to ever repeat through my mind ever again for as long as I live. A New Year, a new start, without you. So here's to the New Year, I want to forgive you, and I want to forget you for the things you've done to me. Have a Happy Fucking New Year.
Maybe i'll move to the Rainforest and build one of these to live in with my new you,
Maybe i'll move to the Rainforest and build one of these to live in with my new you,
12:32 am
She lives in a fairy tale, somewhere too far for us to find. Forgotten the taste and smell of the world that she's left behind. It's all about the exposure, the lens I told her. The angles were all wrong now, she's ripping wings off of butterflies. Keep your feet on the ground when your head's in the clouds. Well go get your shovel, and we'll dig a deep hole. To bury the castle, bury the castle.
So one day he found her crying, coiled up on the dirty ground. Her prince finally came to save her, and the rest you can figure out. But it was a trick and the clock struck 12. Well make sure to build your house brick by boring brick or the wolves gonna blow it down. Keep your feet on the ground when your head's in the clouds. Well go get your shovel, and we'll dig a deep hole. To bury the castle, bury the castle.
Well you built up a world of magic. Because your real life is tragic. Yeah you built up a world of magic.
Well, if it's not real; You can't hold it in your hands, you can't feel it with your heart... And I won't believe it.
But if it's true; You can see it with your eyes. Even in the dark... And that's where I want to be.
Go get your shovel and we'll dig a deep hole. To bury the castle, bury the castle.
So one day he found her crying, coiled up on the dirty ground. Her prince finally came to save her, and the rest you can figure out. But it was a trick and the clock struck 12. Well make sure to build your house brick by boring brick or the wolves gonna blow it down. Keep your feet on the ground when your head's in the clouds. Well go get your shovel, and we'll dig a deep hole. To bury the castle, bury the castle.
Well you built up a world of magic. Because your real life is tragic. Yeah you built up a world of magic.
Well, if it's not real; You can't hold it in your hands, you can't feel it with your heart... And I won't believe it.
But if it's true; You can see it with your eyes. Even in the dark... And that's where I want to be.
Go get your shovel and we'll dig a deep hole. To bury the castle, bury the castle.
Brick By Boring Brick - Paramore
12:16 am
Check yes Juliet are you with me? Rain is falling down on the sidewalk, I won't go until you come outside. Check yes Juliet, kill the limbo, i'll keep tossing rocks at your window, cause there's no turning back for us tonight. Lace up your shoes. Here's how we do. Run baby, run. Don't ever look back, they'll tear us apart if you give them the chance. Don't sell your heart, don't say we're not meant to be. Run baby, run. Forever will be, you and me. Check yes Juliet. I'll be waiting. Wishing, wanting, yours for the taking, just sneak out and don't tell a soul goodbye. Check yes Juliet, here's the countdown. 3...2...1... now fall in my arms now, they can change the locks, don't let them change your mind. Lace up your shoes, here's how we do. Run baby, run. Don't ever look back. They'll tear us apart if you give them the chance. Don't sell your heart, don't say we're not meant to be. Run baby, run. Forever will be, you and me. We're flying through the night, flying through the night, way up high. The view from here is getting better with you by my side. Run baby, Run. Don't ever look back. They'll tear us apart if you give them the chance. Don't sell your heart, don't say we're not meant to be. Run baby, run. Forever will be, you and me.
It seems like the perfect song for the time :/
29th of December,2009 12:01am
It's been a whole day ^-^ People don't understand that i'm mature about this type of thing. Me and him talked about it, he doesn't want anthing. He loves that I haven't done much. He doesn't care if we do anything and he is not like those other guys. He's had bad experiences too, he's been hurt before. He wants a proper relationship and likes me for who I am, not what he tries to get out of me. No one thinks I can handle myself or this, but I can. Everyone just under estimates me. Everyone just under estimates him, but worst of all, everyone under estimates us. This ain't a dream sweet cheeks, it's worth fighting for. He may be older, but he won;t hurt me the way you did. If anything, you were exceedingly more dangerous to me than he ever will be. Thank fuck I finally realised my mistakes and opened my eyes to what really is out there. I'm careful, no more full speed ahead this time. Fuck you.
Suck on that, Bitches!
We were a-courtin!
a r i a n a said:
He gave me his ring :D
VANESSAH, Hold onto your kite said:
Oh?
You know
Back in my day,
a r i a n a said:
:)
yeah?
your day?
you're younger than me!
VANESSAH, Hold onto your kite says:
When a boy gave you some of his stuff it meant you and him were a-courtin'.
a r i a n a said:
Oh god :/
a r i a n a said:
He gave me his ring :D
VANESSAH, Hold onto your kite said:
Oh?
You know
Back in my day,
a r i a n a said:
:)
yeah?
your day?
you're younger than me!
VANESSAH, Hold onto your kite says:
When a boy gave you some of his stuff it meant you and him were a-courtin'.
a r i a n a said:
Oh god :/
7:02pm
Today is weird. I was happy in the morning. Then I cried. I got really angry. Then I calmed down. About ten minutes ago I felt like the happiest person in the world. Now I just feel hollow. But I look at the circle around my neck, and the little bit of happiness is still there, captured in the little bit of you I obtain with me.
4:58pm
I am determined to read the Rome and Juliet story, in book form. Bonita, I thank you for intriguing me with your real life story ideas. If you know me well enough, yu'd know that I love making lists, so heres another one:
Books To Read:
~ Romeo and Juliet - William Shakespear
~ The Twilight Series - Stephanie Meyers
~ Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close - Jonathan Safran Foer (From Ellies suggestion)
~ The Secret Year - Jennifer Hubbard
~ Pretty Little Liars Series
~ The Lonely Hearts Club
~ Forever - Judy Blume
~ The Unlikely Romance of Kate Bjorkman- Louise Plummer
~ A Walk to Remember-Nicholas Sparks
~ A Song for Summer- Eva Ibbotson
~ Dumb Love- Kathleen Johnsen
~ Just Friends- Norma Klein
~ Love Rules- Marilyn Reynolds
~ The Awakening - L. J. Smith
~ Guilty Pleasures - Laurell K. Hamilton
~ Vampire Academy -Richelle Mead
~ Marked - P. C. Cast
~ Vampire Kisses - by Ellen Schreiber
~ Fragile Eternity - Melissa Marr
~ Shiver - Maggie Steivater
~ Hush Hush - Becca Fitzpatric
~ Tithe - Holly Black
Books To Read:
~ Romeo and Juliet - William Shakespear
~ The Twilight Series - Stephanie Meyers
~ Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close - Jonathan Safran Foer (From Ellies suggestion)
~ The Secret Year - Jennifer Hubbard
~ Pretty Little Liars Series
~ The Lonely Hearts Club
~ Forever - Judy Blume
~ The Unlikely Romance of Kate Bjorkman- Louise Plummer
~ A Walk to Remember-Nicholas Sparks
~ A Song for Summer- Eva Ibbotson
~ Dumb Love- Kathleen Johnsen
~ Just Friends- Norma Klein
~ Love Rules- Marilyn Reynolds
~ The Awakening - L. J. Smith
~ Guilty Pleasures - Laurell K. Hamilton
~ Vampire Academy -Richelle Mead
~ Marked - P. C. Cast
~ Vampire Kisses - by Ellen Schreiber
~ Fragile Eternity - Melissa Marr
~ Shiver - Maggie Steivater
~ Hush Hush - Becca Fitzpatric
~ Tithe - Holly Black
27th of December,2009 3:51pm
Ok so with my life, I have figured out how things work:
I have no say in what I do for the next four years.
Bonita's story of what is going to happen in your life is always right. She has now made me believe in Psychicism.
Mothers never move on from situations.
How you change is all depended on communication with your parents.
Parents always have a favourite, even if it is only by a little bit.
Song lyrics always relate to your life.
Nice girls are never permanent.
There may be no place like home, but we'd rather there be no place like home.
I'll always have dreams and ambitions which will never come true.
My parents might not always let me do what I love.
Romeo and Juliet is a sad story.
I have no say in what I do for the next four years.
Bonita's story of what is going to happen in your life is always right. She has now made me believe in Psychicism.
Mothers never move on from situations.
How you change is all depended on communication with your parents.
Parents always have a favourite, even if it is only by a little bit.
Song lyrics always relate to your life.
Nice girls are never permanent.
There may be no place like home, but we'd rather there be no place like home.
I'll always have dreams and ambitions which will never come true.
My parents might not always let me do what I love.
Romeo and Juliet is a sad story.
23rd of December,2009 4:16pm
At the moment, I would give my dick to go on a plane to the Gold Coast, live in Robina and attend Pacific Pines High. If I had a dick... Which I don't, so that might be a problem. Melbourne gives me the shizens, although yesterday was quite a good day. Hot weather, Bona Eater, Biff, Megan and her retarted Superman glasses, what could be awesomer? I probably just met the most coolest person in Melbourne. Purely because he's from Canada, I like the way his mind works and he has pretty radly orgasmic hair. I figured alot of people are way taller than me, I have shrunk, and the people who I thought were, are actualy dickmotherfuckers who can die in the massive hole I will dig for them. They don't deserve Ice-Cream.
Daaaaaaaaaaaamn that shit is wack!
Daaaaaaaaaaaamn that shit is wack!
1:20am
Liar Liar, pants on fire? Let's just leave it at Liar Liar, otherwise I'd try and make the fire bit true. It wouldn't just be your pants though. You fucked her up like you fucked me up, and it was so obvious. Today was like thee wake up call. When I get my license, my goal is to run you over with a borrowed Mack truck and let you bleed on a bush road to death just for the satisfaction of stomping on your grave.
Bonnie says boo.
Bonnie says boo.
Lipstick has a way of leaving more than just a mark on my sheets,
Coloring my senses cherry red; at least for this week...
Kisses under starry night skies, talked about in song,we play along,
So bitter sweet by our design.I'm sick and tired of writing songs about you,
This is it, this is the end...
Take off your makeup and put down the camera,
Choke on the drama that makes me want to,
Tear up the pictures, the pages you've saved,
Creating a life of trends and make believe...
I've got no place in my heart for a criminal like you to dwell,
In this endeavor, make this last forever...
I'm just delirious,You can't be serious,
You're so infamous for leaving me a mess...
Take off your makeup, put down the camera,
Choke on the drama that makes me want to,
Tear up the pictures and pages you've saved,
Creating a life of trends and make believe...
She gets what she wants and she breaks what she gets,
Get out while you can or she'll tear you to pieces.
"Are you having a good time sweetheart?"
Take off your makeup, put down the camera,
Choke on the drama that makes me want to,
Tear up the pictures and pages you've saved,
Creating a life of trends and make believe...
Carry on home,I'll be waiting miles and miles away,
Leaving you to be forever seventeen,
Cleaning up the messes that you've made.
Coloring my senses cherry red; at least for this week...
Kisses under starry night skies, talked about in song,we play along,
So bitter sweet by our design.I'm sick and tired of writing songs about you,
This is it, this is the end...
Take off your makeup and put down the camera,
Choke on the drama that makes me want to,
Tear up the pictures, the pages you've saved,
Creating a life of trends and make believe...
I've got no place in my heart for a criminal like you to dwell,
In this endeavor, make this last forever...
I'm just delirious,You can't be serious,
You're so infamous for leaving me a mess...
Take off your makeup, put down the camera,
Choke on the drama that makes me want to,
Tear up the pictures and pages you've saved,
Creating a life of trends and make believe...
She gets what she wants and she breaks what she gets,
Get out while you can or she'll tear you to pieces.
"Are you having a good time sweetheart?"
Take off your makeup, put down the camera,
Choke on the drama that makes me want to,
Tear up the pictures and pages you've saved,
Creating a life of trends and make believe...
Carry on home,I'll be waiting miles and miles away,
Leaving you to be forever seventeen,
Cleaning up the messes that you've made.
16th of December, 2009 11:59pm
Out of all the people on this earth that I know, I thought you would always be there for me. The two most important people in my childhood life growing up, and you act like this. One of the figures I was supposed to look up to, to be honest, you're nothing at all. You may think what you do has a major impact on my life. Well sure, it does. But in the worst way possible. As much as I love you, and I'm sure you love me, you never show it. If a stranger were to walk in on us in the same room, they would never notice the relation we have. Nothing makes you feel lonelier than knowing the person is there, but they just don't care.
You better believe it. ^
You better believe it. ^
15th of December,2009 5:06pm
I haven't posted in a while haven't I? Jesus, well Pierced lip. To be honest, I never thought I'd have the balls to do it, but I did it. It killed like a bitch, but i am quite happy :D
I don't care about others opinions, I'm happy :)
Love is irrational, I reminded myself. The more you loved someone, the less sense anything made. Even more, I had never meant to love him. One thing I truly knew - knew it in the pit of my stomach, in the centre of my bones, knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my empty chest - was how love gave someone the power to break you. I’d been broken beyond repair.
Cancer
June 23 - July 23
June 23 - July 23
"During the first half of 2010, the emphasis will be on money. With Mars in the part of your chart that governs security, you'll need to make moves and choices that benefit you in the long run,even if they don't change much in the short term. But the second half of the year will be spent fulfilling an aspiration that really excites you. If that sounds like a mixed blessing, let's be clear. We're either blessed or we're not, and you're definitely going to be blessed in 2010. You're set to change many ideas about what you can and can't do. You'll reach a point when you'll look back and say 'I can't quite believe how things turned out for m,' but there won't come a time when you'll say, 'Why did I let that happen? It was such a mistake.' No great error is going to be made. The new year may prove to be difficult and trying at times, but it will eventually bring the realisation that your toughest times are behind you. You have the wealth of precious past experience. As you put that to work, you'll see beyond a problem and become inspired by what you'll be free to build on and improve. You'll very much enjoy the new year, especially all the love, joy and creative satisfaction it will bring."
My 2010 Horoscope, now i'm not the type to be supersticious and I wouldn't say i'm super religious, but lately I have been quite intrigued by Horoscopes and photography and certain pieces of writing. And since the past two years have not been the best, I think I shall believe in this horoscope.Maybe everything will turn around for me next year, and my stars will truely be fulfilled.
For Some Reason, I'm In A Movie Mode(:
2:07am
Let me tell you something about Janis Ian. We were best friends in middle school. I know, right? It’s so embarrassing. I don’t even… Whatever. So then in eighth grade, I started going out with my first boyfriend Kyle who was totally gorgeous but then he moved to Indiana, and Janis was like, weirdly jealous of him. Like, if I would blow her off to hang out with Kyle, she’d be like, “Why didn’t you call me back?” And I’d be like, “Why are you so obsessed with me?” So then, for my birthday party, which was an all-girls pool party, I was like, “Janis, I can’t invite you, because I think you’re lesbian.” I mean I couldn’t have a lesbian at my party. There were gonna be girls there in their *bathing suits*. I mean, right? She was a LESBIAN. So then her mom called my mom and started yelling at her, it was so retarded. And then she dropped out of school because no one would talk to her, and she came back in the fall for high school, all of her hair was cut off and she was totally weird, and now I guess she’s on crack.
2:14am
Marge: Have you noticed any change in Bart?
Homer: New glasses?
Marge: No, he looks like something might be disturbing him.
Homer: He probably misses his old glasses.
2:26am
Dear Future Me,
First off, you better be driving either a kick ass camero or the A-team van. That’s priority numero uno. And by now your rattail should hang down to your frickin knees. You can still slam dunk, obviously, and you’ve legally changed your name to Vanilla Thunder. Your wife, let me break it down, blonde, 6 feet tall, has an awesome rack and caters to your every need.
You’re still rockin’ the stonewash overalls because this look is working. Oh, and most importantly, you better be saving the world. If you became some lame, corporate sell out, just throw yourself off a cliff because you suck. And I icky boom-boom down.
How I Met Your Mother.
2:32am
Let me tell you something about Janis Ian. We were best friends in middle school. I know, right? It’s so embarrassing. I don’t even… Whatever. So then in eighth grade, I started going out with my first boyfriend Kyle who was totally gorgeous but then he moved to Indiana, and Janis was like, weirdly jealous of him. Like, if I would blow her off to hang out with Kyle, she’d be like, “Why didn’t you call me back?” And I’d be like, “Why are you so obsessed with me?” So then, for my birthday party, which was an all-girls pool party, I was like, “Janis, I can’t invite you, because I think you’re lesbian.” I mean I couldn’t have a lesbian at my party. There were gonna be girls there in their *bathing suits*. I mean, right? She was a LESBIAN. So then her mom called my mom and started yelling at her, it was so retarded. And then she dropped out of school because no one would talk to her, and she came back in the fall for high school, all of her hair was cut off and she was totally weird, and now I guess she’s on crack.2:14am
Marge: Have you noticed any change in Bart?Homer: New glasses?
Marge: No, he looks like something might be disturbing him.
Homer: He probably misses his old glasses.
2:26am
Dear Future Me,First off, you better be driving either a kick ass camero or the A-team van. That’s priority numero uno. And by now your rattail should hang down to your frickin knees. You can still slam dunk, obviously, and you’ve legally changed your name to Vanilla Thunder. Your wife, let me break it down, blonde, 6 feet tall, has an awesome rack and caters to your every need.
You’re still rockin’ the stonewash overalls because this look is working. Oh, and most importantly, you better be saving the world. If you became some lame, corporate sell out, just throw yourself off a cliff because you suck. And I icky boom-boom down.
How I Met Your Mother.
2:32am
This is piss. Piss with ink.
Bonita Carzino and Daniel Camilleri, I have no idea what I would ever do without you. You two, my best friends, are very unique people and are always there for me in every single way. Honestly, I don't think anyone would see how funny this was, or understand the way we proceed with things. Why are we British?
12th of December,2009 7:03pm
Ok, so my day wasn't going so badly, until everything went wrong. Suppsed to meet someone at work, but I ended up being so late, they left. After feelig bad about that, my family ends up having some random loud wog fight. If you don't know what wogs sound like fighting, congratulations, you can hear perfecty. After tht catastrophe I am notified my wardrobe has been taken over by little kids christmas presents, because I really want that. I am then left home alone looking after my four year old sister while my parents go shopping, after putting her to bed I wanted a coffee, since we had barely any milk I, being an idiot, decide to use the tea plunger to make my coffe so I only had to use the little amount of milk. I couldn't find the damn plunger and looking in the cupboards I see the food I requested to be bought, hidden behind the blender, and if you know me, I don't like people hiding my food. After making a mess of having the plunger stuck and cleaning it up, little did I know that hot water makes glass explode. Lucky me broke my others new tea maker/plunger. What a great day -____-
I'm not coming back, forgive me. I've done something so terrible, I'm terrified to speak, I'm not calling, I'm not calling. But you'd expect that from meI'm mixed up, I'll be blunt, now the rain is just washing you out of my hair and out of my mind. Keeping an eye on the world, from so many thousands of feet off the ground. I'm over you now, i'm at home in the clouds and towering over your head.
Quite nifty, Don't you think?
What To Buy:
Thriller:
~ Black Pants
~ Neutral Coloured Top
~ $5 for Monster Mask
Will You Be There:
~ White Oversized Dress
~ White Shorts
~ White Right-Handed Glove
~ $3 for Sequencing To Be Sewn
They Don’t Really Care About Us:
~ Army Pants
~ Khaki Shirt
~ Black Face Paint
~ Black Shoes
~ Black Pants
~ Neutral Coloured Top
~ $5 for Monster Mask
Will You Be There:
~ White Oversized Dress
~ White Shorts
~ White Right-Handed Glove
~ $3 for Sequencing To Be Sewn
They Don’t Really Care About Us:
~ Army Pants
~ Khaki Shirt
~ Black Face Paint
~ Black Shoes
Fuck priorities. The things you thought were important, won't be so important after a while. The people you thought will always be there, you will never see again. The things you look forward to, might not come around after all. Everything you long for, everything you wish for, it will never come. Not everything is as it seems. People are fucked. Friendships and relationships don't last forever. Perfect is impossible. People don't find what you find important, important. My opinion? They can just go suck my dick.
10th of December,2009 10:45pm
Thankyou to the person who gave me a reason to smile, I have decided to write a list of the things I love;
I love the sound of rain.
I love thunderstorms.
I love the way music shuts me away from the problems.
I love how my hair just sometimes sits good when I wake up. Sometimes.
I love that new car smell.
I love my family, even though they shit me to death.
I love how my dogs just look at me and I get happy.
I love how he makes my day, and I know he'll always be there when I go to that place.
I love how Bona-eater calls me as soon as she thinks im down. Even if she's in the car.
I love when I get hooked onto old bands I love, and I memorise all the lyrics withing five minutes.
I love how my girls will always be there.
I love when my hair is curly.
I love the ad-free-50's when theres old songs on that make you go "Ohmygawd I remember this song!"
I love the fact that the dickhead of a boy did not stay with me.
I love gay looking photos, just because of their memories.
I love webcamming to people I rarely see.
I love last minute wardrobe decisions, they always look best.
I love stupidly funny television shows.
I love English.
I love cold days in my bed.
I love deep laughs, that are real, not fake.
I surprisingly love the way my mood changes very quickly.
I love that I am immature at times.
I also love that I am very mature at times.
I love the sound of rain.
I love thunderstorms.
I love the way music shuts me away from the problems.
I love how my hair just sometimes sits good when I wake up. Sometimes.
I love that new car smell.
I love my family, even though they shit me to death.
I love how my dogs just look at me and I get happy.
I love how he makes my day, and I know he'll always be there when I go to that place.
I love how Bona-eater calls me as soon as she thinks im down. Even if she's in the car.
I love when I get hooked onto old bands I love, and I memorise all the lyrics withing five minutes.
I love how my girls will always be there.
I love when my hair is curly.
I love the ad-free-50's when theres old songs on that make you go "Ohmygawd I remember this song!"
I love the fact that the dickhead of a boy did not stay with me.
I love gay looking photos, just because of their memories.
I love webcamming to people I rarely see.
I love last minute wardrobe decisions, they always look best.
I love stupidly funny television shows.
I love English.
I love cold days in my bed.
I love deep laughs, that are real, not fake.
I surprisingly love the way my mood changes very quickly.
I love that I am immature at times.
I also love that I am very mature at times.
10th of December,2009 10:29pm
Well great news in the last two minutes. I had just been informed that office staff will be at school until the 23rd. I know you don't care, but I am really bored and this is fairly great news. :)
10th of December,2009 10:27pm
So... What happens when you leave your pencilcase at school at the end of the year with your 8 gig filled usb in that pencil case, in that school which you won't be returning to nesxt year?
I may aswell just go kill myself now -_-
I may aswell just go kill myself now -_-
10th of Decemebr,2009 12:01am
May aswell write about the whole day, maybe I won't look so bitchy then. Hopefully.
The day started off quite annoying, doctor was running exceedingly late, which made me not get my test result for the science test which I believe i did quite well in, that was shattering. I get there and I automaically am 100% tired from the testing, it's as if someone jus drained all the life out of me. Yet I put on that happy smile that is used to cover up the tiredness and the sadness. It's amazing what a smile could hide. Everything went along smoothly, friend over after school, ignoring the one that made my last year in Middle School hell, basically, it was one of the best days this year. An old friend popped out of no where, an amazing surprise, he didn’t even act ike a dickhead! Though I never really thought about the way a perfect day could change so quickly, without you even realising it when you were ruining what could be the most perfect thing you could find. I had just fobbed off the most amazing person, for something that was so stupid. I didn't need to know the truth about some chick who made up shit, hen again I already knew the truth, it was all a bunch of sh*t. He left without me even knowing, he never said his goodbye, he never gave me that heart stopping look, He was gone. Had I srewed things up? Was this even a thing? What is a damn thing anyway? All I know is I hated it. Ok, stuff the “not being bitchy” thing, I feel like the biggest bitch regardless of if I write the goodthings about today or not. It all ends up being about something bad.
The day started off quite annoying, doctor was running exceedingly late, which made me not get my test result for the science test which I believe i did quite well in, that was shattering. I get there and I automaically am 100% tired from the testing, it's as if someone jus drained all the life out of me. Yet I put on that happy smile that is used to cover up the tiredness and the sadness. It's amazing what a smile could hide. Everything went along smoothly, friend over after school, ignoring the one that made my last year in Middle School hell, basically, it was one of the best days this year. An old friend popped out of no where, an amazing surprise, he didn’t even act ike a dickhead! Though I never really thought about the way a perfect day could change so quickly, without you even realising it when you were ruining what could be the most perfect thing you could find. I had just fobbed off the most amazing person, for something that was so stupid. I didn't need to know the truth about some chick who made up shit, hen again I already knew the truth, it was all a bunch of sh*t. He left without me even knowing, he never said his goodbye, he never gave me that heart stopping look, He was gone. Had I srewed things up? Was this even a thing? What is a damn thing anyway? All I know is I hated it. Ok, stuff the “not being bitchy” thing, I feel like the biggest bitch regardless of if I write the goodthings about today or not. It all ends up being about something bad.
9th of December,2009 11:55pm
Fuck I could hate myself so much now. No, screw that, I hate you! Not really, as this is probably just the anger talking, but you make me so fuking mad. All the progress that was built during that period of time, all blown away in the space of a couple of hours, for NO REASON! The highlight of my day is seeing him, the thought of his eyes maks me shiver. For some reason in this short amount of time, i've grown quite fond of the thought of him. RUIN IT WHY DON'T YOU!?
Don't you just hate it when you feel like hiting something or re-arranging someones face, but you can't do it at the time? Thank you, extremely bitchy mood, you have now just made me look like a bitch. Great work Ariana.
Don't you just hate it when you feel like hiting something or re-arranging someones face, but you can't do it at the time? Thank you, extremely bitchy mood, you have now just made me look like a bitch. Great work Ariana.
6th of December,2009 7:02pm
And even though he doesn't believe in love, he's determined to call her bluff.
6th of December,2009 1:31am
Webcamming to Jesse, the one making me laugh through this dreadful pain. And even though you see how much im hurting, you laugh in my face like you love it. Wait, no scratch that, you do love it. You're enjoying every single bit of it. I thought you were someone different, I didn't think you were like the rest, turns out I was wrong. Everything was the same. Nothing really mattered to you did it? You don't think I would've cared about any of it. You were so different, she ruined you. Your amazing personality, everything that made you, she sucked it out of you. All that is left is what you've been moulded in. The surrounding of you has become you. You're now just like them.
5th of December,2009 1:52am
I also hate seeing your face everywhere I look. You and your cute face -_-
5th of December,2009 1:52am
I see you again today, I was quite shocked to hear that you actually did keep track of my routine of dropping in. Asking when I was going to be seen next. I was flattered really. Those eyes, I cannot help but to glimps every two seconds at them, just to assure myself that the colour has not changed. I do not know why, I just do. The way you smile at me, your cute boyish smile, you seem to gie me the shivers everytime you smile. I get tongue tied everytime you spea to me, the words won't come out the way i want them to, the way they play in my head before they are supposed to come out. I don't know how you knew quite so much about me, but I liked it for some strange reason. Looking up from my table to your sillouette passing me, I see those eyes again. A small greeting and you were back to what ou were doing, the next time i look up brought me into fits of laughter, the big wave you gave me when I was two metres away, the flapping pieces of annoying plastic falling on you, the way you almost tripped out the door, it was all anough to get me into my smiling mood again. And with just one look, my face would light up. I don't see how i get so shy around you, when we could talk normally, I knew we could, some things are just so unexplainable. Now all I have to do, is wait until the next week to arrive, I hate how you make me hate weekends now... Ok I love it. Ahh! :D
As you walked past, my heart skipped a beat. Your mesmerising blue eyes rested their sight upon my own dark brown eyes. As we were introduced, I did not know which action to present, but with a single shove into my back, I believed it was safer to just share looking at eachother and smiling once every short while. I could not help but glance numerous amount of times as you worked just to admire your memorable features without the worry of you catching my eyes move around you. As we passed eachother a few more times, our eyes always managed to lock until the duration of our passing finished. As i took one final step out of the shop, i turned around to say goodbye, for the third time you announced the pleasure of meeting and gave me that boyish cute charming smile, as I smiled back I turned away. I turned around just to catch one more glimpse, but as it turns out, you were already still watching me, another smile was shared. As much as to anyone these smiling moments would mean nothing, it was quite spectacular for myself, I just need to find out if you share the same thoughts like we share the same moments.
3rd of December 2009, 6:34pm
For once she was happy in her life. She let it go, she was sure the past was behind her this time. He made her forget about the hurt she had been put through, he made her smile like she used to. He caused her depressiveness to be jaded to nothing. All her thoughts were based on what a good life they would lead together, her mind set on trying to find a way to make it happen. He had no idea how much she knew how wrong she had been. She realises her mistakes now, all she wanted was a second chance.
2nd of December, 2009 3:46am
I could feel my heart sinking into my stomach. It just lay there, an empty piece of meat with a faint beat barely heard. It just didn't move, didn't feel like it pumped the blood through my veins. I had never felt it go down so hard before, the thing is, it only did this when I was scared you would be gone forever. I knew the feeling all too well, but had never gotten quite used to it. It was a feeling I wish i had never had to experience, makes me wish I never had to see another day. I may have ruined things now, but there is always a reason behind the actions I portray. Words can't describe the emotion and everything in this situation, and pictures would never be able to give their thousand words on it, but the look in the eyes says it all. There are only two things I'm afraid of; My glass heart being shattered again, or that look being shared with someone else.
12th of November 2009, 12:59am
I don't see how he did it, but he got me into rap. So here i am at 12 whatever in the morning, listening to some random heavy rap shit and thinking "What the hell am i doing?" Questioning my existence on this earth and my purpose. Do we really live just to die? Does life really go that quick like our olds go on and on about to us? Why so many bad things happen in this world, yet the message that is being passed around is to make peace? It's as if everything we've ever stood for is a load of bullshit. Nothing is forever and there is not an answer to most of our questions. You can never tell a truth from a lie, and when someone is "telling the truth", are they lying, or are they lying about lying yet telling the truth? These things we will never really know. Just having all these thoughts racing through my mind is making me dizzy, I wonder how philosophisers feel?
26th of October, 2009, 11:14pm
I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt,
But I didn’t know I made everything worse.
You told me we were crazy in love,
But you didn’t care when push came to shove.
That wasn’t me; let me show you the way.
I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today.
I remember when I first looked into your eyes,
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies.
You’re the one that I want, the one that I need,
The one that I gotta have just to succeed.
When I first saw you, I knew it was real,
I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel.
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me.
I loved you with my heart, really and truly.
I guess you forgot about the times that we shared,
When I would run my fingers through your hair.
Late nights, just holding you in my arms,
I don’t know how I could do you so wrong.
I really wanna show you I really need to hold you.
I really wanna know you like no one else could know you.
You’re number one, always in my heart.
But I didn’t know I made everything worse.
You told me we were crazy in love,
But you didn’t care when push came to shove.
That wasn’t me; let me show you the way.
I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today.
I remember when I first looked into your eyes,
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies.
You’re the one that I want, the one that I need,
The one that I gotta have just to succeed.
When I first saw you, I knew it was real,
I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel.
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me.
I loved you with my heart, really and truly.
I guess you forgot about the times that we shared,
When I would run my fingers through your hair.
Late nights, just holding you in my arms,
I don’t know how I could do you so wrong.
I really wanna show you I really need to hold you.
I really wanna know you like no one else could know you.
You’re number one, always in my heart.
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