31st of December,2009 9:05pm

Well tonight is officially the last couple of hours of this year. Another New Years Eve spent at home to think, but only until I can't be bothered to think. Until I reach for the glass, to try and forget about this year. To try and forget about the past 360 days i've spent thinking about you. Five days ago I realised I did not want to do it. I may not want to forget you, but I need to forget about the painful memories we shared. You may have given me some great memories this year, but you have also given me my worst. Ones which I do not wish to ever repeat through my mind ever again for as long as I live. A New Year, a new start, without you. So here's to the New Year, I want to forgive you, and I want to forget you for the things you've done to me. Have a Happy Fucking New Year.






Maybe i'll move to the Rainforest and build one of these to live in with my new you,

The Anthropology of Ariana.

I'm not who you think I am because to be honest, you don't know who I am. How should you? I laugh when i'm not meant to, I cry when things get happy. I never know what to wear. I want it to be hot when it's cold, and cold when it's hot. I like being alone, yet when I am, I wish I wasn't. I realised not everything is worth dying for. Nothings what it seems and who you thought were, aren't. All I need is you, that's all I really know.